Somebody that I used to know [open]

[Olivia Levine]

Olivia owed the titans everything. They helped her out when she was at her lowest point, got her back on her feet, and allowed her and Ruby to become stable, both emotionally and financially. Over the past year she had fallen in love with a wonderful man as well, he cared for her, protected her, and had gotten her out of living hell. The past year of her life had been great, transitional, to say the least, but pretty wonderful. She had gotten a job as a waitress in one of Jump’s most expensive restaurants, where they tipped pretty nicely, she was almost 19, and was on the fast track to living a normal life, Ruby still came with her to work at night, sleeping in the back lounge room while Olivia ran from table to table, kitchen to dining room. Ruby, who was two, was now walking, talking, just like a mini person, still sucking on those three fingers when she got tired, or upset. A habit Olivia was trying to break her of. Things seemed to be really positive for once. She even had one five hundred dollars she had gotten on her scratch off for her birthday last year.

Things might have been going well for once, but Olivia felt things kind of changing. She didn’t see much of the team anymore, they were always busy, and she and Tim, well she didn’t know where they really stood anymore either. He cancelled on her more then he got to see her, saving the city was a full time job now a-days...So when she had saved enough money to make a deposit on a nice 2 bedroom apartment downtown, she jumped at the chance to move out of the safe house and not expect someone there at all hours.

It has been almost a week after moving in now, and Olivia was pretty sure her ties with the titans were slowly falling apart, She and will Occasionally texted, just for him to check up on her, she cc’d him in all of the photo emails she sent to her friends of Olivia. Tim got them too, but he rarely responded. He could make the effort if he wanted to, she wouldn’t be the one reaching out desperately if he wouldn’t make the effort to reach out once or twice too…

Sitting on the floor of the small living room, her legs crossed native american style, she played with Ruby. The TV was off, which was normal for them, since she didn’t really like it on. Ruby was allowed 2 hours of TV a day, which normally was one in the morning, one at night. They were playing with a DUPLO lego tea set. Things were quiet today, so when there was a knock at her door, she jumped slightly. “Stay back here Rue” Olivia said getting up from sitting position and walking over to the door, which was in the kitchen/ dining room. She popped up on her toes, looking quickly into the peep-hole, and was taken aback. Not that she never expected a visit, but it just felt weird now… She went down the side of the door, unlocking all four locks(better safe then sorry) finally opening the door.

"Hi..." she sighed, looking the guest over from head to toe.

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

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outfits:click
notes: old mackys back in town

[Tim Drake]

The last year had been a strange sort of calm chaos. With all that had happened, with the new heroes and villains, and the new forces in the city, he had been on the edge of overload, and it was growing tiresome. And then Olivia and Ruby had happened... Breath of fresh air that they where, and as good as it had been for William to connect with the one remaining piece of his past left mostly unscathed, he had always known that a relationship between him and her, would be very hard. And he honestly was not totally sure that it would be worth it, for either of them. He didn't lead a normal life, and that was all that she wanted after the hardships she had endured.



Looking her over, Tim smiled softly at her, and nodded to her as he noticed her looking over him, and he knew that she was... Thinking...

He had been thinking hard the last few days, and had missed her terribly. He also knew that he had not been treating her very fairly, but given the dangers and threats they where facing, with the mysterious forces and persons driving the underground labs, he and the others had been working very hard to try and stop them. And given that until just recently, there had been some state backing and laws that had marked them and given the Labs the headway to round up supers. But thankfully, that had been over turned with some hard work and Will and Violet turning a very bad situation, around into the one point of leverage into the start of a long hard fight towards the end of shutting down the Labs.

"Hey... Haven't seen you in a while... Are you doing okay?" he said softly as he looked into her icy blue eyes, and again remembered how beautiful she was, and just why he had fallen for her.

[Olivia Levine]

Olivia looked to him, she wasn’t sure if she should sweep everything under the rug, forgive him for being away, hug and kiss him and go cuddle and watch Elmo in Grouchland for the 700th time. The other option was to voice the fact that she was upset, that she felt neglected. She cared about him so much, he and Ruby were her world. If anything happened to either of them, Olivia would just want to throw herself off a roof. “Its fine” she said, shaking her head no, and shrugging. “I totally get it, its totally ok.” She was too afraid to loose him, and she didn’t want to argue with him, in fear that he would leave her, and find someone who would be happier with him. She wasn’t happy with herself for not voicing how she felt, but eventually she would forgive him, right? She watched as Ruby peeked from behind a chair and giggled at the two, running back up to Tim and falling midway, landing on her hands and knees. She didn’t move for about five seconds, then screamed in pain. Ruby, unlike most kids had zero tolerance for pain, if she fell, and got a little scrape, or if she fell and just didn’t like the feeling, it was over. Walking to her aide, Olivia sighed, knowing all too well that little Ruby would not get up and run to anyone. She’d wait to be picked up.

She looked to Tim as the little girl sobbed on her shoulder, still furiously upset. “Want anything to eat?” she offered. Brushing it under the rug would be hard, she just wanted to be mad, but she couldn’t be mad because he was protecting her. Ruby reached for Tim, now, wiping her wet eyes with one hand, and sucking on three fingers with her other.

Why couldn’t Will, Violet or Jetta lead the group? All three were perfectly capable, even if Jetta was going all Benjamin Button on everyone. She still was a leader, and she knew how to do it, it might not have been Tims way, but it was A way. Handing off Ruby, Olivia sighed, unsure of what to do with herself right now, she was too upset to enjoy his company and even be happy that he was here, right at an arms length away. She understood saving the world was important, she really did, Was it important enough to ignore your loved ones completely. “What do you think of the new place?” she asked. There were still a few boxes in the corners, but it was coming together quickly, she was able to get some really nice furniture, and paint the rooms herself on her nights off. Overall, it was a small place but nice.

Finally, all the calm Olivia had started to disappear, she crossed her arms as she looked to him, and then down to the ground. “What happened last month, on the twelfth?” she questioned. That was the day she was all dressed up and ready to go, the babysitter was at the safe house, and after two hours, Olivia sent her home, waiting another two before getting undressed. She had called, texted, and emailed, but never got a response giving an apology.

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

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outfits:click
notes: old mackys back in town

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[Tim Drake]

Tim let a small sigh out and shrugged at her, a small smirk dancing across his lips as he trued to get another look at her eyes, but it was hard when she looked away or to the ground, as if she was nervous or shy. Which, he knew she was very much prone to shyness, as much as a defensive reflex as habit or personality trait.

Maybe that was what he missed about her, that vulnerability that was always just hidden from the world, that she had trusted him with, even more so than she had with Will, who was one of her best and oldest friends. He also had to admit that it was nice, given that he was always around very strong and powerful females for much of his time, between Raven, Korry, and Violet, he sometimes felt as if he was living in a tower full of Amazon cast-offs with all of the barely restrained estrogen derived power. With Olivia however, there was a more subtle strength, not so much like power, as a kind of durability, and a gentleness he enjoyed very much.


"Yeah, the last few months have been some of the hardest we've had to deal with, what with all of the... Well..." He couldn't tell her everything, as much as he wanted to, but after what had happened to Violet and William only just two months ago, it was both a sore spot personally, and a secret that was best kept from people unable to fight the hidden dangers.
"Yeah, with all the bad-guys acting up like they have been, I've been working way more than I'd like."


Having stepped into the apartment, he looked around for a moment, and then determining that Ruby was in fact hiding in the kitchen, he darted in, and planted a small kiss on Olivia's cheek, his hand reaching up to her arm lightly. Her skin was cool and soft, and her hair smelled like mint and cherries, a blossomy fragrance wafting off of her skin. It was a scent he missed very much.

"Listen... Olivia... I've missed you and Ruby very much recently, and I know that I've been very much absent lately, and I really wish it wasn't the case but..." He looked away out of the window for a moment before looking to Olivia and whispering; "I want you two safe, and happy, and I want to help with that... Even if it means that it's without me..." He didn't really know what to say, or really what would happen, he was very much just opening his heart up to her, something he knew they used to do almost all of the time just before he suddenly was thrust into the middle of what amounted to a race war. He wanted to hug her, and kiss her, to not just have sex, but to pour his emotions out on her, his fears, frustrations, hopes and affections, but they had barely talked for six weeks, and hadn't seen one another face to face in over three months...

"What I'm saying is, I'm sorry... I don't like being so far apart like this, but... Someone needs to lead the fight, and right now, that someone is me... I fight to protect you and Ruby, and all of the people in this city with powers, with gifts, from people who would harm you all... Us all..."

There, he said it, and he was relieved, if only because it was out there, and he knew that so long as he gave her the truth, then she would respect him, and thank him, and not blame him solely for all that had happened...

[Olivia Levine]

Olivia looked to him, she wasn’t sure if she should sweep everything under the rug, forgive him for being away, hug and kiss him and go cuddle and watch Elmo in Grouchland for the 700th time. The other option was to voice the fact that she was upset, that she felt neglected. She cared about him so much, he and Ruby were her world. If anything happened to either of them, Olivia would just want to throw herself off a roof. “Its fine” she said, shaking her head no, and shrugging. “I totally get it, its totally ok.” She was too afraid to loose him, and she didn’t want to argue with him, in fear that he would leave her, and find someone who would be happier with him. She wasn’t happy with herself for not voicing how she felt, but eventually she would forgive him, right? She watched as Ruby peeked from behind a chair and giggled at the two, running back up to Tim and falling midway, landing on her hands and knees. She didn’t move for about five seconds, then screamed in pain. Ruby, unlike most kids had zero tolerance for pain, if she fell, and got a little scrape, or if she fell and just didn’t like the feeling, it was over. Walking to her aide, Olivia sighed, knowing all too well that little Ruby would not get up and run to anyone. She’d wait to be picked up.

She looked to Tim as the little girl sobbed on her shoulder, still furiously upset. “Want anything to eat?” she offered. Brushing it under the rug would be hard, she just wanted to be mad, but she couldn’t be mad because he was protecting her. Ruby reached for Tim, now, wiping her wet eyes with one hand, and sucking on three fingers with her other.

Why couldn’t Will, Violet or Jetta lead the group? All three were perfectly capable, even if Jetta was going all Benjamin Button on everyone. She still was a leader, and she knew how to do it, it might not have been Tims way, but it was A way. Handing off Ruby, Olivia sighed, unsure of what to do with herself right now, she was too upset to enjoy his company and even be happy that he was here, right at an arms length away. She understood saving the world was important, she really did, Was it important enough to ignore your loved ones completely. “What do you think of the new place?” she asked. There were still a few boxes in the corners, but it was coming together quickly, she was able to get some really nice furniture, and paint the rooms herself on her nights off. Overall, it was a small place but nice.

Finally, all the calm Olivia had started to disappear, she crossed her arms as she looked to him, and then down to the ground. “What happened last month, on the twelfth?” she questioned. That was the day she was all dressed up and ready to go, the babysitter was at the safe house, and after two hours, Olivia sent her home, waiting another two before getting undressed. She had called, texted, and emailed, but never got a response giving an apology.

[Tim Drake]

"No, I'm good thanks."
Taking Ruby, Tim hugged the little blond gently, and smiled at her, before he looked to Olivia and sighed, looking to the floor for a moment, before he walked towards the couch, and sat down. Looking up to Liv, Tim shook his head and thought to explain but... There was only so much he could tell her, and she knew that. And he knew that she was fighting some anger and feelings of abandonment, given what all people had done to her in the past, he couldn't blame her. Still it wasn't fair, to him, or to her, for things to be as they where...


"Livvy... Something came up, and I had to go, and there simply wasn't time to contact you, and by the time it was all over... It's not fair to you, I know this, and it's really not fair to me either but..." he looked down at Ruby and smiled faintly, before looking back up to Olivia, and giving her a small sad smile.

What could he say? How could he make this right? Was it possible to do so? Was there any chance for them to be happy together? In any way?

"It's not fair to Ruby either, and... You two make me happy, and I wish things where better for us but... I need to protect you both, and everyone else in this city who is at risk from these people, and that includes most of my friends. And I want this to work, but I don't know if it can... But I'm willing to try. Are you?"


He wanted this to work, in a way, he needed this to work, but as to the chances of it working. He honestly could not say, and it bothered him very much that things seemed so uncertain, unclear, and so terribly faint. He knew it could work, but it was the how that was the issue. How could they make it work? His commitment to protecting the city was absolute, and it would require more and more time from him, more effort, and energy, and there where only so many hours in a day after all. Why was it so unfair? All he wanted was just a little happiness, and he had found that in Olivia, and Ruby. But it almost seemed as if it wasn't meant to be.

[Olivia Levine]

Olivia nodded slowly. She knew she could trust Tim, and that he wasn’t off fucking around with Cat Woman, or some other super person. And that if he could, He’d be right next to Liv on Sunday nights, watching Mad Men, while she fantasized about living in the traditional family setting, like a Norman Rockwell painting. Olivia had dreams of being a housewife, a real mom. She took care of Ruby the best she could. Soon Ruby would be old enough for a regular day care program, and Olivia could work during the day too, She wasn’t going to be a failure as a mother.

Taking a water bottle over to the couch, the blond sat by his side. She smiled as she looked to Ruby hugging and loving on Tim. His hair was so dark,”How’d you wind up with two Blondes on your arm?” she asked, playing with his hair. She gave him a soft, ‘its getting better’ smile. Olivia seldom wished Tim could just be Tim all the time. How did Batman happen to have a civilian live, yet Tim was tied to his job with an umbilical chord. “I’m not going to lie, I’m still a little upset, but you being here right now, is making it better. I hope we can work it out, because I’ve let you in, and letting you go would nearly kill Rue and I. I’m willing to try one more time.” she sighed, continuing to run her fingers through his raven hair.

Leaning her head on his shoulder,arching her back to move a pillow. “I wish you were Tim all the time, and that you had some preppy little job like an assistant bank manager or something, and you came home to me and Ruby every night. “ She second she closed her mouth, she instantly regretted her words. “I didn’t mean it like that, I just wish I didn’t have to share you with the city sometimes…” She stopped touching his hair, feeling like she had said something wrong. She normally kept to herself about how she felt about Tim’s job, and what not, Ruby didn’t quite understand just yet, so she would be filled with worry while watching the news every morning.

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

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outfits:click
notes: old mackys back in town

[Tim Drake]

Tim looked to Olivia, and then reached his hand up and caught her chin, and pulled her eyes up to meet his, the icy pale blue color drawing him forward, like some sort of siren song, only without sound, just color and depth. Staring into her eyes he whispered softly; "Don't... Just... I know... I always dreamed of having some sort of job where I worked like everyone else, maybe designing web sites, or selling ad space on TV, or something... But that all changed the day my father died... And the day I became Robin, all hope I ever had at being totally normal, died for good... So long as there are evil men to fight, and good people to protect, there will be a need for me, and my friends, to do what we do best, because not everyone can do it..." he then gave her a small smile and kissed her cheek lightly; "Just like not everyone can be as impressive as you, and be such an incredible mother to Ruby... I really do wish it wasn't like it is, but I can promise you this, all I can, I give to you two. You two keep me grounded, and remind me just exactly why I fight."

He closed his eyes and leaned his head lightly over onto the top of hers and hugged her shoulders lightly, his other hand holding Ruby closely as she hugged them both now and babbled something into the space between their necks, then laughed as if it was some strange and private joke. And maybe it was, Ruby was almost scary smart for her age, and with her slowly emerging powers, there was no telling just what she could end up doing when she got older.


Nuzzling her hair lightly, Tim smiled as he sighed; "Sometimes I really wish I could just be me, but sometimes, I wish I could just be Robin... Still, I know that either way, I always wish for peace and quiet, and for everyone to be safe." What else could he say about the subject? As grand and sweeping as Robin was, as massive as the task of being a hero could be, in the end, that's what it all boiled down to, and there was no way around that fact, and that it gave reason to the existence of Robin, and the purpose he was who and what he was. Once more he just hoped that it was all compatible, himself, Robin, Olivia, and Ruby...
Only time would tell it seemed.

[Olivia Levine]

As he spoke, the only thing Olivia could see is what could be. They had been together for a while, and all she wanted now was for him to be normal. He was the world’s hero, he was her hero. “You know, you would still be my hero if you were just Tim” she said holding him close as Ruby slid off the couch to the floor. Tim would always be her hero. He did keep her safe, even when he wasn’t wearing the cape and the mask. It didn’t matter to her what he did, or if he even had a job after. She knew about the checks the city gave them, and also knew how rare it was for him to spend his. He probably had a great little nest egg. Perfect for starting a real life away from the titans.

She now felt the sudden urge to ask of his intentions. Olivia, known for going with the flow, and never questioning anyone, needed to know if Tim would ever leave the titans. It was a tough question to ask, but she needed to know. The lump caught in her throat begged her brain to ask. Was she sitting around and waiting for something that would never come? Would she have to take matters into her own hands to make him come to his senses about his life? Olivia had once had this dream, that she had vocalized to the wrong person. She had told Grace that she had a dream one night that Tim had gotten her pregnant, and that Ruby had woken her up right before she got Tim’s reaction. Gracie of course did not give anything up as to her future with Tim, because of the threats she had received from the team. Dispite all the begging and the promises Olivia had made to know the future,the only thing Grace had said was ‘Its possibly the way to go...Maybe, I don’t know, don’t listen to me, go away, can you make me something..?’

Olivia took a deep breath. Letting her shoulders fall as she prepared herself for hearing something that was possibly not what she wanted to hear. “Do you think you will ever want to leave the Titans and have a real family?” she asked. She didn’t want to add the ‘with me’ part, just in case it really wasn’t meant to be. She didn’t want to scare him with commitment, even though she had been more then committed for all of this time. She had thought about just stopping her birth control to get what she wanted, but she wasn’t that type of person. Olivia thought about all that she could have done to get something more then random visits and short cuddle sessions with the man she knew was the one. She never took those advantages. She knew best that waiting would bring her what she deserved. Or did fortune really favor the brave?

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

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outfits:click
notes: old mackys back in town

[Tim Drake]

Tim looked at Olivia, and tilted his head slowly, the gears clearly turning behind his electric blue eyes. He could tell that she was dodging her true question, and that she was hanging on his answer. Which was not strictly fair, he had told her the truth, that he was still young enough to not know where he wanted to end up yet, that he didn't know how long he would be Robin, or even a hero, but that he was open to a normal life. If even he had the chance to have one, without forsaking his personal ideals and the moral obligations he carried.

"Olivia... I can see us together, both as we are now, and as a normal family... But I don't know which I want more... I wish it was more simple, less questions and more answers but..." he paused and took a deep breath, looking over at Ruby for a few moments before locking his gaze on Olivia; "I love you... Please don't question that, but there is so much to be done, and right now... I wish I had more time f or you and Ruby, I do, it's not fair to either of you right now, but I can't make more time, and I can only do so much in a day." he reached his hand out to her, and rested it on her leg, smiling softly; "Right now, things are too complex to make a choice, for either of us. So for now, let's just enjoy what we have, and plan for tomorrow another day."

It was not what he wanted to say exactly, and he was guessing that it was not what she wanted or even needed to hear, but it was all he could say, and he would not lie to her, or make a promise he could not keep, and as much as he wanted to just tell her everything would be just fine. He could not and would not lie to her. So he would just not say everything that was in his mind to say yet.

[Olivia Levine]

Olivia looked to him, her expression fading, leaving blank emotions as he spoke. That wasn’t nessicarily the answer she wanted. His wordy, response boiled through her head until she was left with the message that she and Ruby does not compare to the family he had with the titans were never ever going to compare. Maybe one day, they would, but as far as he could see, they did not. Nodding, the blond’s blank look continued. “Ok” she said, void of emotion, as if he had told her they had no more peanut butter. A hand flew through her hair, before her eyes fell to her leg where his hand had fallen. Maybe her expectations were too high. Maybe Olivia’s personal conceptions of relationships and what the rest of her life would be like had been all wrong. The fairytale she had imagined was just a figment of being young, and alone in the world. She stood, letting his hand fall from her denim clad leg, “I just need a second” fell from her lips in a hurried tone before she walked down the hall, leaving Ruby and Tim alone in the living room.

Pacing narrow bathroom, the blond sighed. He didn’t know which he wanted more…Finally, she leaned against the sink, facing the wall, light tears being held back as her void expression refused to change. She would never make Tim choose, not because it wasn’t fair, but because an entire city, no a world full of people would always trump two. Who would turn down the world? To the world, he was just Robin, boy wonder, but to Olivia and Ruby, he was the world. Ruby included him in her stories, even if he wasn’t present at the event. Olivia thought of him multiple times per day. She splurged for the apartment higher up, with more windows so she could keep a closer eye out for him. There was no use crying over this, especially not now. Turning to look in the mirror, she stared deep into her own eyes. Trying to regain an ounce of composure, and maybe a little pride.

She returned to the living room, to see Ruby playing with her baby doll. Perceptive little bugger. She was very consise about how she treated it. It made the mother proud, even though she only could afford a small handful of toys for her daughter, she made sure they were top of the line, age appropriate, and kept nice and clean. Sitting back down, her cheeks pink as she rubbed her own arms. “I don’t want you to ever have to choose between us and them” she started. “And I’m saying this because I don’t want you to feel guilty every time you see us. I don’t want you to feel an obligation anymore. I’m more then willing to just let you be… I’ll wait until your ready” Olivia knew the fact that Tim even loved her was a big deal. It felt like it to her at least. Every time he said it, her heart fluttered, her cheeks became pink, and something went off in her brain that felt like someone mixed pop rocks, mentos and sodas. She was more then willing to wait for a day that had the possibility to never come. With Tim, the possibilities were endless, there was the possibility that he’d walk out that door and she’d never hear from him ever again, and though she was completely unprepared emotionally for that, she knew she could roll with the punches. She knew it would become harder and harder to explain, the longer she waited for him, things would change. Olivia would still be patient none the less.

I guess this is what happens when people love you… The compromising never became easier, but the coping would… right?

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

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outfits:click
notes: old mackys back in town

[Tim Drake]

Tim knew that his answer had left her wanting more, and he hated himself for that, but he could not make such a choice. To pick between his life's work, the driving force behind who he now was, the world and all of his responsibilities, and his girls, and all of the responsibilities he had to them... Could he make that choice if he had to?

He didn't know, in all honesty if he could, and the only thing making this tolerable right now, was that in helping the city, he was helping them, even if indirectly, and that mattered, Olivia had said as much. But even when she said it, and as he believed it, it still felt hollow somehow. He had been warned of such complications when he had taken up the mask. His mentor and guardian had been very explicit and clear on the subject; "As terrible as it sounds, we have a singular advantage, and that is the fact that we have no family, it is both our motivation, and our freedom, as well as our burden. By not having a family, we do not have a point of weakness to be exploited, yet we also lack that one deciding factor of motivation... If you wish to devote you're life to this, totally, then you must accept that you will not be able to have much of a personal life, nor allow yourself to entertain such ideas. If you do, then you must accept the burden of distraction that brings as well."

The words, and the moment rang in the back of his head, and he knew that there was a choice to be made. It always came down to a choice, and it was the proverbial rock and a hard place for him now. How could he choose? How was that fair to Olivia and Ruby? How was that fair for him?

It wasn't, and he knew it, and he hated it, and he allowed himself a moment of selfishness in bemoaning the frustrations of such a choice...

"I can't choose, because it's not fair... I just... I just wish I knew how to solve this to where everyone could win." he said as she sat back down. Looking to her, he could see the hidden hurt and worry behind her ice blue eyes.

Leaning in, he kissed her cheek softly, and then whispered into her ear; "I'm yours for the next forty-eight hours, all yours." The city would keep for that long, Raven, Beast Boy, Darkbrand and Blaze where in the tower, and Cyborg was passing through on his way back to Steel City, if they couldn't handle whatever might happen, then there was very little he could effect either way, and his absence would not matter...

[Olivia Levine]

Sept 25, 2012 21:36:37 GMT -5 Olivia Levine said:

Olivia looked to him after he kissed her cheek. Her brow furrowed and her lips turned into a pout. What was he talking about? She brought her attention to his eyes, locking hers on his. “I don’t want you to choose” she said. “I just told you that I’m not making you choose. That I’m willing to wait until when you are ready for Ruby and I” she turned to face him more. It was obvious she was not a happy camper in this situation. He wasn’t listening to her, he was going through the motions. Olivia knew Tim knew she was upset, but what was he going to do about it? From what she could tell, absolutely nothing. She wasn’t going to continue to hold the grudge. She would make his free forty eight hours enjoyable, but in her own mind, she was over analyzing every word out of his mouth.

Ruby walked over to them crawling into her mother’s lap.holding a red block in each of her clamy little hands. The little nails painted a deep ruby color as well. “Bye bye Tee” she cooed, waving the block at the man. Somehow, that hurt the older blond. Tim was her daughter’s main male influence in her life, and she only knew how to tell him goodbye. Kissing the baby’s head, she held her tight, looking at Tim and wondering what was going on in his head.

She could never compare to the titans, his family was truly there, in that tower. Every time that Robin put his mask on, he made the choice of picking the titans over ‘his girls’. It was only hard for him now because of the ever growing confidance that Olivia was finding within herself. The old Olivia would have been meek, shy, and just content that he remembered her name on occasion and didn’t bother with Ruby. This Olivia, new Olivia wanted more then just a few spare hours that could be spent on patrol or training. She was happy when she was cooking dinner and Tim was playing with Ruby. She wanted the small, nuclear family that was only found in Norman Rockwell paintings. And after a life full of selling more then just her soul to keep Ruby taken care of, she thought she deserved some assemblance of normal.

“Tim. I just don’t want to be alone forever. Waiting for something thats not going to happen. The times I get to see you are a dream… I just don’t want to...” O shook her head and took the blocks from the little blond. She couldn’t find the right words. Get too attached? Make you make a promise you can’t keep? Wait anymore? “I don’t want to confuse Ruby.” she chose, finding that was the least selfish of her thoughts. She placed the babe down on the floor next to the couch. She hated the idea of being selfish. But it was the one time where something she wanted was so close within reach, but was just a hair behind the do not cross line.

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

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